POISON ME HAPPY

Stick my eye with a rusty syringe

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 02:30:38 GMT

I AM back......i think.....

here i am

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 15:48:56 GMT

rocking out to thw wu while i clean the apartment out...throwing away moer and more shit each day..im kinda tired of it..way to depressing now

and .....wow

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 01:12:38 GMT

ive been working on a lot more artwork latley..expect mass picture updates within the next few days.....

liquid herion is expensive but delicious

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 22:30:32 GMT

yup the subject says it all, saturday night liquid herion was on the menu...yummmmmm!!

i also got a tattoo right above my wrist.. its pretty!

animali in calore surriscaldati con ipertermia genitale

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 21:29:17 GMT

what was he thinkin?

i havnt updated in a few and ide have a excuse for it but i dont, i dont think anyone really reads this thing anyways. not like they used to anyways. i feel like im losing a lot of friends. i really dont have anyone to talk to anymore. i started doing ok for a lil bit there but im right back where i was, ive been really down the last couple days and im digging myself down into a rut again that i just cant get out of. i miss certian people a lot.

on a less shitty note -
my computer is still fucked hard, im suprised its still running right now. and next paycheck is going to xbox360 so this bad boy wont be fixed till after xmas it seems like. (i hate christmas by the way).

back to fantomas again....

t.a.t.u

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 17:28:24 GMT

the new album is fucking good, not old album good but still, i cant stop listening to it!

horse the band, tiny bat fuzz pedals, and even a little trickery

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 12:57:37 GMT

ok i havnt updated in a few days (weeks i dont remember) but listen, lots of stuff is going on, im still feeling like complete shit over lindsay...and so im not mr happy dance around and prance all day anymore.

friday oct 14th
6:00pm
reading mass
5$

poison me happy (meeeee!!!)
eat your makeup
muninn
pink lotus
val
crown now
cant/jessica rylan
death by a thousand cuts

for 5$ if you in the mass/nh area you better be there or i will think you hate me!

you also need to get the new "horse the band" cd cuz its fucking damn sexy and lustfull and hot and steamy and ful of keyboards and god im hapy about it. i got my new pedal in the mail "jacques bat fuzz" its tiny but its a mean bastard lots of high end to it, little bueaty cost me 120$ so im pleased, now im just waiting for my godlyke to get here and ill be set for fridays event (ha! i so need to practice, anyways thats about it for now, ill go into more like me time later when im up to it im tired right now and sleep must be gotten!

kyle out!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 11:00:05 GMT

ok so at work im on probation for not going to work all that often, and if i miss a day im fired (hahaha probation) and last night THEY GIVE ME A RAISE!!!! saying how good a wokrer i am and how im a "asset" to the company...fuck them and there raise putting me on probation then telling me i kick ass! fuck em!

right now im setting up my shit for a fun day of rockin out and recording some new tracks possibly make some fancy artwork, playing a show the 14th, i forget where. then i gatta get plane tix for phili and cali and spend some time away from this fuckin hell hole new hampshire!

also miss a few poeple, gonna see a few next month but i still miss em.

me and jen face are supposidly going to drop dead fest and im excited for that world inferno!

had a urge to go visit laurennn the other day, just go down and be like suprise! just for fun. i dunno why at all but maybe.

other then that im tired and im going to bedy bye!

HORSE THE BAND BITCHES!

does he kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head?

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 23:14:44 GMT

i dont know how this entry is gonna turn out so yay for that i suppose.

this weekend should be pretty fun, me and mr peeples are going to lowell to rrrecords for a free concert. hopefully laura will join us cuz on top of a free noise show seeing her again would make me very smiley and happy. after that depending on how tired i am i wanna watch audition, A tale of 2 sisters, and mpd. then sunday i need to visit my sunday morning brunch buddy and gossip with her! i missed out on that last weekend. also have to go see corpse bride with kim tathum (sp). then monday when no one is here im setting up all my gear and just messing around with different set ups and start working on new tracks, i need to get my keyboard back from mr nat so i can utilize that as well.

i dunno i will update more in the morning when i get home, right now im gonna watch advent children again and smile. i have a lot i need to get out so expect a very angry update possibly tomorrow...

love you

fuck you...and die!

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 19:24:39 GMT

kiss me goodnight....

cleaning my room turned into a much bigger project then i had imagined, soooo much shit....sooo little space. im just gonna throw most of it away forget organizing. a lot of it has lost meaning to me anyways. ummm so yeah saturday going to a show in mass...gonna kidnap luara and make her go! or just work something out and visit her, cuz laura is fun and silly and thats thats. also firday i get money so im gonna buy my new delay pedal ive been craving http://www.zzounds.com/item--BOSDD20

yup its sexy. also whe you pour your heart out to someone and they never write you back really feels good....yeah real good, thought ide add that in there cuz im a lil frustrated about that. listening to some patton right now, makes me forget about things...planning a screening party for when advent children gets here, big gala event with a-list celebs and velvet ropes.

tired........

seemingly endless.....what?

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 00:25:12 GMT

so yeah i got ditched again today....damn me! tomorrow i plan on getting shit accomplished though..no more bullshitting around i need to start doing stuff or im gonna go insane.

ADVENT CHILDREN FUCKING RULES!!!!

god damn it this update is done!

the special parts requested wernt easy to come by

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:17:45 GMT

So saturday came...chris woke me up and i called laura. me and chris had some adventures and got dave, then more adventures, then we make it to the bowling alley and meet laura there. laura looked amazing...i looked like shit... i hope she wasnt bored there i felt kinda bad since she doesnt like bowling but i couldnt think of anything else to do...i gave her her birthda present iguy and she seemed to enjoy it. then we sadly parted ways and me and chris and dave went on more adventures. then i came home and slept a bunch a now im typing and yay me...

my feelings were hurt pretty fucking bad on thursday and i dont know what i should do about it...since the person who did it doesnt really wanna talk...

hopefully me and shannon will hang on tuesday and more smiles will be had.

oct 10th, 11th, 12th, and 13th. YUMMMY YUM YUM!

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 23:55:36 GMT

someone stab me in the eye...

windmill windmill for the land...

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 10:44:56 GMT

for the next few days i wanna clean my entire room out of everything that isnt music , book, movie or pc related, i wanna set this place up and get everything ready to record and start playing more...unless of course someone nice and kind pulls me away from it and we skip threw the woods or something...anything.

i really need to vent...or talk one of the 2 talking doesnt seem to be happening, maybe thursday but its highly unlikley...bought the best birthday present ever for someone yesterday, and if she is reading this then HA! you gatta wait to see what it is! i found someone that makes me smile and happy when we talk...to bad there is allready a boyfriend in place. im very lonley. still really hurt by everything.

maybe this weekend will be fun at least....

more later i suppose

i like the word ravishing.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 12:52:32 GMT

im rocking my new horse the band t-shirt right now so i may seem a lil to chipper this morning.

hopefully the rest of my order comes today at some point cuzim getting antsy and i want it badly. and my check clearing would also be very nice and i would greatly appreciate it citizens (fucks kyle at every turn) bank. its a special someones birthday thursday so i need to get her a present. AND A CARD! still cleaning my room all out, throwing away more shit everyday. someone (not gonna drop any names) named shannon said she was gonna visit me last night and then never showed up.....ditched again! how come the cute ones ditch me! tomorrow however final fantasy advent children is released and mine willbe shipped to me right away and im very very excited for it....look im shaking im so excited..i waited all god damn spring and summer for it and the day is finally here. hoot and holla cuz im excited people.

all for now..remember..TOMORROW ADVENT CHILDREN COMES OUT!

voodoo, english gangstas, vodka, and tonight

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 16:39:55 GMT

voodoo fest is being moved... dont know where yet there still working out all the details and updating as they see fit..kinda wanna know where soon so i can make the arrangements to get there. triz isnt going anymore so that puts a HUGE damper on the whole show but i guess i have to deal with that, and just go down to florida to visit some other time.

watching layer cake. fuckin great movie thus far its not over yet but i enjoy it emmensly. also on english gangstas im playing the getaway again...love the story and the accents and the fact that i can hold a guy hostage and still shoot his buddies then blow his head off...hehe

wanna go to the liquor store today but my check hasnt cleared yet, im in the mood for some skyy vodka cuz ive been a lil under the weather for oh say the last 3 some odd months, and i feel like having a lil drink, maybe even clean my room completley out and have some people over. i dont drink often either but i do want some now!

tonight i want to go see a movie, get some food, get some alchy in me and then come home and play halo 2 all night. i highly doubt it will happen that way due to my funds or lack there of but what can yah do right?

ill prolly just sit and play games all day and then pass out sometime around 3 am

countin bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 14:52:43 GMT

im diggin the new tub ring dvd a lot.

ok so todays plans as it stands....

shower, bank, post office, mall, blockbuster. thats all said and done in the hole consider it finished..

next i really wanna hang out with miss shannon this evening, i ditched last week and felt bad about it, but tonight im ready for it! dont know what she would wanna do but im up for anything this evening, maybe grab some din din and a movie!

other then that recording came to a screaching halt, i need to get my room emptied of all its shit so i have room to dance about and shake it up.

more later today

since shannon is reading this now i have to watch my language!

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 18:11:01 GMT

psh to that i say!!! PSSHHH!

so i hung out with christian and dean and christians girl last night at deans place, we rocked out and played with his girls synth she has....soooooo fuckin good to! then was SUPPOSED to go see jocelyn and shannon (wanted to really badly to i might add) but ended up not happening at all cuz shannon ditched me before i could get over there cuz she got tired. PSHHH AGAIN!

im lonley....

i got the new tub ring dvd in the mail and its pretty sexy, lots of sex, and sexyness involved. funny lil stories music videos and oddly enough a spider video game on the disk..who knew?

rob came over with chris this morning and we rocked out halo 2 till about 10 (they brought me bagels so that was nice of them).

emailed lindsay again.....i think im starting to annoy her but im still really fucked up about this whole thing and its buggin the shit out of me...but oh well i mean i cant force the girl to do anything....

since shannon is reading this now we need to hang out more and rock out! im thinkin movie night or something along that line!

wow sunday....wow

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 10:47:16 GMT

Rob - (after he got the jeep wedged into the wall to the point where escaping isnt happening) "god damn it how did that happen"

Kyle - "get out i'll drive"

Rob - "fine"

Kyle - (blows up the jeep)

Rob - "DAMN YOU"

Kyle - "im done with the jeep, lets go"

so that sums up sundays day for yah, i only left out minor details like, the party we crashed, lots of booze, salem, stevie wonder...but i mean nothing major..

on another note im very confused right now about a few things....and i need to sort them out pronto!

fuck right off

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 21:22:00 GMT

this is ri-god-damn-fuckin-diculous. im pretty pissed off right now so this is gonna be short. FUCK YOU! im so sick of being treated like this. im sick of holding a candle for a girl who could give 2 shits about me, the onl thing that ever mattered so much to me and i fuckin lost it. i thought i was doing better, but no then this happens...and the best is she doesnt even know how this is effecting me..i cant even talk to her about it...fuck!

OIJ!

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 20:07:50 GMT

this idea is like 5 min old im glad your ok with this...

planning is still under effect, tonight maybe the team will come up with some ideas....watching some japanese cyber thrillers to get inspiration from, some japanese horror to helps the thought process run nicley.

need plenty of fake blood.. so if anyone has any recipes for it lemme know i know of some and im researching more to try different things and find the cheapest way to go about it.

ill update more in a little bit...

meeting with the crew of OIJ in a few moments...

embarking on a impossible journey

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 18:17:29 GMT

step 1 - recruit the other members of team impossible journey
- meet the team thus far
Dave (alligator malone) Tampsett - idea man, camera, second director, drunk.

Chris (sir peeps a lot) Peeples - effects, camera, sound, master of the boom mic, mini-van driver.

Rob (saint johnny flame bag) Saint john - drunk, comedic relief, finder of females.

and yours truelly - camera, sound, director, editing, costumes, psp puppeteer.

step 2 - plan, storyboard, write (all the fuckin grunt work)

step 3 - Cast

step 4 - make that shit happen bitches!

ok so as vague as that is..im taking on a project so i dont lose my mind over this whole lindsay thing (HA!) and it started off as just joking around about it but now im dead serious and i wanna make this happen. and i wanna take it seriously and make it come out good and not half assed, i wanna rent equipment if needed, boom mics, gl20 cameras the whole shabang. this is gonna be frustrating as a mother fucker to get it as i want but it will keep me busy and in the end be soo worth it.

more info on operation impossible journey to come.....

spenidng money like a motha....fucka?

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 23:18:43 GMT

in the past couple days i have purchased-

horse the band t-shirt
horse the band dvd
suicide girls dvd
jackass season 2 and 3 dvds
5 patch cables
xome t-shirt
alesis phazor mod fx pedal
3 robert j, lennon books
jolt energy drink case

i have been putting off recording for a while, not playing just recording it and making it pretty. im rockin a few ideas and so far im actually happy with a few of the results. just gatta get it EXACT! really started to get a thing going i really like so im sorta pleased with myself on that note. listening to a lot of xome and goverment alpha and some jazzkammer as well.

on a none musical note my room is actually getting clean as i throw more and more things of mine away. i can allmost function in it now.

im gonna miss jen face when she is in cali...we just started talkin lots again to!

ok this got long and pointless...no one reads this anyways so yay for talkin to myself!

god damn nosebleeds!

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 10:59:48 GMT

my nose just stopped bleeding when i started this.

for the record 964 pinocchio is a severly fucked movie, very good, but very very fucked up.

so here is my run down of yesterday...woke up at around 6:30 am, then showered and fell back asleep till about 10:30 went to the mall around 11:30 suprised that jen was not there on a sunday and so i talked with lindsay till about 1:00, i guess it was a good talk i mean we didnt really fight or argue and i didnt end up crying so i suppose thats a plus. after i left her i went to best buy and browsed a bit and then i went to suncoast and did the same. i asked a girl working in the isle i was in if they had the movie "suicide club" and she didnt think they did cuz there foreign section is dwindling down (and for some reason mixed heavily in the horror section) and so she asked if i really liked foreign films and we got to talking and found we had a lot in common movie-wise and i mentioned i had a region free dvd player and she was all about that afterwards like where i got it? how much it was? is it bad ass? all that stuff. finally i got way to nervouse and said goodbye (this was like 45 min into the conversation) and that was that. i went back to best buy and made my selections (audition, a dirty shame, the machinist, and 964 pinocchio) and then went back to talk to lindsay again and sow her my purchases cuz she wanted to see em. and then i left. got home, thought about going back to the mall and asking that girl if she wanted to hang out sometime maybe get some lunch on her break anything, but alas my confidence kicked in so i stayed right home. talked to jess and she convinced me to go talk to the girl again so im gonna have to sometime this week or she will kill me. talked to colleen as well about the same thing and so i must go talk with this girl again. then i watched battlefield baseball. fell asleep for a bit and then talked with janell for a lil bit(janell rocks and i miss talkin with her so that was a huge plus, miss that lady) and then i watched a dirty shame (fuckin great movie, john waters i love you) then mandy stopped by and got underwear (sounds weird but its not) i bought her some a while ago and she is jsut picking it up now. talked with laura for a while witch is always a nice thing, im glad were talkin and chillin again, if i hadnt had been stupid maybe we wouldve been chillin way back but what can yah do now right? fell asleep till about 3 am then watched the machinist (loved it emensly*) then i watched 964 pinocchio got a nosebleed and now im typing this out for you.

commin up today

gonna watch casshern (finally!!!!). sell some more shit on ebay i dont want/need anymore. clean my room and actually make a dent in it this time (if i do ask that girl over i cant have it looking like it does now) gatta find christians power cable for his nes so i can get aht out of my room and into his hands. and more movies must be watched just dont know what (maybe sexy teacher)

this entry is far to long....DONE

triz everybody, everybody triz

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 13:48:52 GMT

cant wait to meet this lady at voodoo! after what around 4 - 5 years were gonna meet finally its insane!

last night both rocked and sucked all in one big combo
(more details on that later)
im not big into drinking...im more into having money

I BOUGHT FRESHFRUITS!!! the book is amazingly amazing! the first was gld the second is pure gold solid disco. (i also bought wigfeild, peices of the left hand, on the night plain,and The Light of the Falling Stars) for books. and i bought the suicide girls dvd. i was in a bad bad mood and very lonley so i spent ass loads of money...sue me! im done for now...later more...now more money will be spent to make kyle feel better about himself (then instantly shitty again)